🕒09/02/2018: My sis gifted me a cool "New York Yankees" cap.

Since that day, you'd rarely find me outside without it. The cap means a lot for introverts. I've worn it for almost six years without even thinking about getting another one.

🕠 08/09/2023: While on a bike journey with my mom and dad, the cap was snatched away from my head due to speedy wind. We stopped and picked the cap back. I tightened it like my life depends on it but just in a few mins, it again flew away. The bike was moving fast and it was too late to get my cap back. Mom said "let it go; we'll get another one at the mall".
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Might sound like a normal incident to u but I had a deep relation with that cap over those six years. It's funny how u truly realize the value of something when it's gone, even if it's a non-living object.

Guess again I wrote a long post, sorry. I'm just sad about losing it. No other cap can replace that one, prolly the best gift to me from my sister. Will try to find & buy the same cap online. Sorry little Yankees cap, I couldn't save u. If I was driving the bike, I'd have made a U-turn to get u back in any way.
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TL;DR for busy people: Lost my six-year old cap that I used to wear almost every time I went outside.

as I'm growing up and facing reality, I've come to realize that my current abilities don't measure up to what I'd hoped for. I started getting into things like programming, game/3D design, and music at a young age out of curiosity. But my restless mind led me down a path of taking shortcuts, essentially becoming a "script kiddie" who modified existing projects from the internet. I'm sharing this because some people have higher expectations from me, and it's embarrassing. Seeing 12-year-olds develop complex Linux systems and projects makes me a bit envious. But I've decided to change my approach. I'll start learning from the ground up and focus on creating original projects rather than relying on templates or AI.

Note: I might have taken shortcuts in programming and development, but my music journey, with one year of actual production, is based on my original efforts and compositions.

Shout out to Australia for winning the Cricket World Cup! However, I'm sad, and I know all the Indian fans are too. My bro and I were ready with fireworks and stuff, expecting India to take the win after killing it in all the previous matches of this season.

I think the toss messed the whole game up and made it tough for the Indian players to shine in batting or bowling due to pitch conditions. My heart goes out to Rohit because it was his last World Cup; he didn't get selected in 2011, so that had hopes this time. Also, this season was organized in India, so it'd be so much cooler if India could win among 1.3 lac fans cheering in stadium.

Anyways, it's a game of both skills, luck, situations, and unexpected flips... so we gotta be strong and wish for the next cup!

Happy New Year's Eve!

2023 wasn't quite good for me. Although I learned a lot this year, in the meantime, I ruined my studies. I also became aware of my mental disorders and addictions. At times, I acted like an overly matured guy, while most often, I behaved like an immature child.

Since many people are likely to be in a joyous mood, I won't spoil it with a negative or depressive post. So let's end it here. I hope this year was good for you, and as for the upcoming year, wait 40 minutes, guys. I'll wish you in the next post XD

2023 • Chapter Closed

happy new year!! 🎉

May god bless you all. Have a joyful year.

my internet is slow rn, so can't copy-paste more cool wishes from Google.

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Telegram provides 'UNLIMITED CLOUD STORAGE,' right? Uploaded files are secured and easy to access and install.

What if we (Team LoopVoid & InterSick) create a dedicated file storage app? It's free for anyone, whether a Telegram user or not.

We'll set up separate private channels for each user on a Telegram account. All files will be uploaded uncompressed by default. The process is automated—upload, view, and reinstall within our app.

No need to purchase storage from any service or rely on 15 GB Google Drive. Just create a free account on our app and access your files anytime, anywhere.

It's just an idea. There might be concerns about Telegram detecting automations. Tho, we could consider storing compressed backups on another platform.

i tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter.

the only purpose i currently have in my life is to die leave behind a collection of my work—mostly artistic, some scientific theories (fictional, lol), and some psychological theories—before i die. i won't care if nobody ever sees that collection; it's just for me. i will be able to die with some percentage of satisfaction. one of the reasons i HAVEN'T committed suicide is that i haven't decided the method yet created anything yet that satisfies me extremely.

burning in hell is a sure bet for me, but 1%(0.1% shall work too) of good work against all my sins (and crimes) will take the edge off the pain.

kind of exaggerated post but... i dunno.

Okay, after thinking about it a lot, my final decision is I'll quit music. I know an artist does his work for himself, so did I without expecting any fame or money, as you know, my songs are unreleased.
But I have already spent hundreds of hours in music production in 1.4 years. It can be considered as a waste of time as it ruined my studies, and still, I didn't succeed in music.

The main reason is I'm not satisfied with my tracks. They are boring, same like previous, carry fewer emotions. I already have zero background in music, and I never played any instrument. So, only two options are having natural musical talent or practice.
I don't have natural talent either. In my initial days, I was choosing random out-of-key notes which proves that my sense of pitch and rhythm was weak.

Now, practice. Yes, it improved my musical sense, my engineering side of music, my arrangements, and even composition, but results are far below what I could expect. If someone is made for music, he/she will make good songs within a course of a few months - I have seen this many times.

So, with these valid reasons and my wasted future, I'm quitting music. If not completely, then I'll keep my tracks private.

But, before I quit, I'd like to share some of my tracks (like 8-10 original songs and 1-2 remixes). I could share a few more, but I have lost access to my old projects which were on my damaged PC. Still, I have some MP3s from them, which I'll share as it is because I don't care about perfection anymore. If the mix is bad, let it be. Composition is bad, let it be - at least it's mine.

And yep, leaving music won't make me hobbyless. I'll focus on programming in which I'm interested even before music. I'll keep writing stuff which I'm already doing for years and I'm satisfied with it.

A big thank you to everyone who listened to my tracks, supported my project "SickSpace," and encouraged me not to give up. But music is more like a natural thing that isn't meant for everyone, so here I give up.

~ SickSpace (Sep 2022 - Feb 2024)

https://youtu.be/QRZPw-9sJtQ?si=V-CZ8BtFge1mL3S6

"it's easier to break an atom than a prejudice" ~ Einstein

almost forgot that i have a channel too!

we didn't miss this time! :)

beautiful spiritual song from my friend @rishab_ff (VARDAAN) <33

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tBca7p-17kE

history almost repeated itself :(

Got that autumn feeling? 🍂 Our Autumn Vibes Mix is full of songs that feel like a warm hug 🤗🎶 Perfect for all your fall moments ❤️

Unofficial Spotify playlist for We Are Diamond's youtube mix.

26-10-2024
blessed.