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I think this is the moment.

Or maybe… it was never meant for me to return here in the first place, since I had already decided to leave a long time ago.

At this point, I don’t really know what I’m supposed to say, or even what I’m supposed to feel. If you noticed, I’ve been gone for quite some time—since October. And somewhere along the way, I realized that as I grow, this world no longer feels like a place that gives me anything good.

What it left me with, instead, were things I had to carry on my own.

There are things that hurt—deeply. Things done without awareness, or perhaps without care. But I’ve come to understand that not everything needs an explanation. Some things happen without reason, and maybe… not knowing is the only closure I will ever get.

And that is enough for me.

This is not a door left open for anything to be fixed.
And if there were things you wished to mend with me—
they belong to a time that has already passed.

As I take this step to leave completely, I hope this world becomes kinder—to the ones who are still here, and to those who will come after. I hope they leave with lighter hearts than I did.

Despite everything, I am grateful.

For the people who were kind, for the moments that felt real, and for the lessons that shaped me into who I am today. This place, in its own way, taught me how to endure—how to stand stronger, even outside of it.

To everyone who has ever been part of my story here, whether we ended in good terms or not—
thank you.

I don’t regret anything. Because every moment, no matter how it felt, gave me something to learn from. And in my own way, I did care. I did value those connections, no matter how brief they were.

Some good things would have never existed if we had never met.
And the person I am today… carries pieces of this world within her.

I guess this is where it ends.

For my own peace, I choose distance—from things that once took too much from me. And I believe I deserve that.

But for those who remain on good terms with me, and wish to carry that connection beyond this space—I’m open to it. After all, I don’t think I’m that hard to find.

Thank you for being, in one way or another, a part of this chapter of my life—one I may never fully put into words, but will always remember.

Me, Cherrie Christine Gayoso—
as your Ester Expósito Gayoso—
is leaving the roleplayer world, for good.

And if you ever find yourself missing me,
just look at the night sky…
and tell it to the moon.

Because after all,
I have always been the moon—
La Luna de Marquesa 🌙
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