I remember the night I lost Scathwyn was the same night I was supposed to feel the most alive, standing on stage, crowd too loud, and she was there like always—di depan, paling heboh, teriak-teriak support sambil nyebelin kayak biasa, loud, talkative, never running out of things to say, tapi entah kenapa malam itu kerasa off, I caught her looking at me weird after the set, terus pas ketemu di belakang panggung langsung jadi adu mulut over something stupid that got too serious, she kept talking, gua makin emosi, sampai akhirnya gua bilang, “yaudah kalau gitu udahan aja,” and for once she went quiet, nodded, and left, and that silence hit harder than anything, days after that felt empty, no voice notes, no spam chat, no her, jadi gua nulis lagu tentang dia—how annoying she was, how she made everything less quiet, and how stupid gua for letting her go, and yeah… I uploaded it, and people said it was good, but all I could think was… funny how I kept her in a song, but lost her in real life.